Crossroads

Okay I just read Wendy's blog and instead of commenting I decided to write a new post. I have another Graston appointment tomorrow and I think it should be my last. I started down this road at end if last season. I have tried FSM treatment which felt good but did not help with the Achilles pain. I rested, I iced and still no change. I jogged 6 miles a week during Jan and Feb! March came around and Mag 7 season began. Terribly out of shape and still in pain I knew I was not ready to race. But I wanted to. I always want to race. Last year even when there were no Mag 7 races Amanda and I would drive to where there was a race. Columbus, IN, Pigeon Forge, TN. I even drove 18 hours straight through to Sarasota, FL to run my first half!! Loved it but what was I thinking? I even raced more than one race a day. I won two in one day which was a nice ego boost. Okay, I beat that dead horse enough. So season started, I "raced" and it sucked. So I stopped. Then my new idea: Graston. Got convinced to try new doc and after 6-8 sessions I still hurt and I'm not sure if I just have the worst case of tendinitis or if I need to go elsewhere? I am going to decide this after my session tomorrow. My new plan is to get another opinion, get healthy by mid August so I can start getting in some miles. I can do some limited speedwork but I have no endurance and I hurt lots afterward.
Attempted some 400's on track this week and although I enjoyed it, my foot hurt a lot. I had a very depressing day today. I decided not to run, thinking my foot deserved a break. So lots of time to sit and think about this annoying problem and ask why me? I am sure other runners have had this issue and healed to run again. So let this happen! Meanwhile I have 3 more weeks of my always too quick summer break. Not ready to go back to school yet. This injury affects my mood and thus everything in my life. But maybe the answer will be clear soon. My mind seems so cluttered and confused that I'm not sure of anything right now. oh yeah, I'm at a crossroads(title if this) and I Must move forward, hopefully in the right direction.